On the blink
BMJ 2010; 341 doi: https://doi.org/10.1136/bmj.c6072 (Published 23 November 2010) Cite this as: BMJ 2010;341:c6072- John Quin, consultant physician, Royal Sussex County Hospital, Brighton
- John.Quin{at}bsuh.nhs.uk
Candia McWilliam published her first novel in 1988, drawing praise both for her polished prose and her striking looks. Not since Truman Capote had an author’s photograph provoked such a torrent of chatter. Sixteen years have passed since her last novel—so what happened? Here we find out: a torrid struggle with alcohol and the excruciating torment of severe blepharospasm. For 22 hours a day she couldn’t open her eyes. She was thus functionally blind, prone to accidents and “functioning” only fleetingly, describing her odd appearance thus: “In order to gain sight, I grimace, stretch, peer and . . . hold taut and high my already rather camel-like head with the result that I look . . . like the caricature of a snob.”
Marinating in self disgust she sees herself as “a monstrous dowager with Tourettian facial tics and the creep-and-lurch gait of a not sufficiently …