No thanks, I've already eatenBMJ 2004; 329 doi: https://doi.org/10.1136/bmj.329.7467.691 (Published 16 September 2004) Cite this as: BMJ 2004;329:691
It's easy to miss a meal when you're a junior doctor. There is always an excuse not to eat: one more patient to see or one more form to fill in. I've probably always had the problem but managed to hide it from everyone, including myself. Then something bad happened in my personal life. During a short period several people I knew suddenly died, one a suicide. I felt responsible in some way and started restricting food again to punish myself. I did not know then that this was a normal response to feeling low and was ashamed of my feelings. Friends advised counselling, but I was scared that if anyone found out it would have a terrible effect on the career I had just started.
I seriously considered stealing drugs from the wards to help me lose weight
It got to the point where I could hardly eat at all. I found out where all the bathrooms were where I was working. I seriously considered stealing drugs from the wards to …