Me, the heartsink patientBMJ 2000; 320 doi: https://doi.org/10.1136/bmj.320.7248.1513 (Published 03 June 2000) Cite this as: BMJ 2000;320:1513
- Sarah Evans, general practitioner
- Tring, Hertfordshire
Going back to work was not just hard. It was ridiculously hard. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I have never considered not working, but I wanted someone to tell me to stop. As my baby approached 4 months, my days, my waking thoughts, and all my conversation became dominated by worry about leaving her. Unsurprisingly, she cried each morning as I dropped her at the nursery in a nearby village. I usually recovered from my own drenching panic as I approached a particular cottage garden in the next village on my journey to work.
A year later I found myself in the …