Happiness regainedBMJ 1994; 308 doi: https://doi.org/10.1136/bmj.308.6933.925 (Published 02 April 1994) Cite this as: BMJ 1994;308:925
- C M Maheswaran
I opened my eyes and gazed at the blue and white wall tiles. Something was not quite right. I closed my left eye. I could see with my right eye. I closed my right eye and opened my left. A large chunk of my vision was missing. I was momentarily confused. Could I have a detached retina? I told my husband. We got up and he tested my visual fields. I had a large central scotoma.
It was the tenth day of our honeymoon in Crete. Everything fell into place. Five months earlier I had had an episode of nystagmus lasting for one week. We had worried briefly about multiple sclerosis then but I had had no more neurological symptoms or signs. We persuaded ourselves that it might be related to the migraine headaches from which I occasionally suffered. We got engaged one month later and spent the next four months planning our wedding. During the last month I had had pain behind my left eye. I had also dismissed this as migraine. Now the picture was clear. Classical optic neuritis. Why hadn't I recognised it? Suddenly my world seemed to fall apart. We knew that I had multiple sclerosis.
We stood by the sea and I cried. The last four months had been the happiest …